Shall I erase it?

hehe.. U see..I'm in a fine mood..

Because it's HOLIDAY!kekeke..

No la! It's time to STUDY!! For Final Examination for this SEMESTER..


End with intro. Why I post that title? Well.. I am asking anyway..hehe

To myself. ^^


U know I'm kinda unstable. in mood. my mood. but..same goes to everyone else right? and for me.. when I am in such bad mood. I won't kept it inside. I thrown it away. not in front of that person, if I unsatisfied with that someone or something. but through my blog or twitter. just don't get me wrong. I am not such a coward for not saying it in front of that someone. but I know, if confrontation is made, it will start a war. and I'm not a fighter. I'm a lover ok!keke.. if I'm at wrong. I may reflect myself. but if I'm not wrong, than.. blog and twitter will be my medium to let it all out. I write this just to give a clear message that I'm not a bad person. but I'm not a good person either. hehe. just ME-in-the-middle.. keke.

and the title above.. shall I delete the bad post?erk..the post when I'm in bad mood? erm..... 그래서요..

for now..just let it be..I mean just let the post there right? for I don't hold grudge over them anyway. but I do feel guilty for published such "cruel post".. erm.. SORRY. that's all I can say. and I'm not asking to forgive me. cause I'm literally bad. but I do forgive that someone anyway..literally forgive?hehe..no. truly forgive. just don't do that again. please. I don't touch your things, I don't disturb you, I just need you guys to do the same. is it really hard? just hope to say that to them. ok.

End with the reasons behind the title.


to U! I'm SORRY too... For any hard feelings I gives or anything that may hurt U. For any mistakes. I AM SORRY.

GOOD LUCK with STUDYING!! GOOD LUCK for FINAL EXAM!!

and Thank U. This is for U.

p/s: U are my bestfren bestfren..and the BESTfrenz. Guy? in the song above..just change it with bestfren ok!!hehe..erk.. actually lagu above.."SWEET!" just enjoy it ok!hehe.. n my point is "Thank you for being here, Monday to Sunday." sweet right?keke.. who's sweet? I am..ekh no. U ARE sweet to me.

p/s lagi: kalau ajushi yang nyanyi lagu ni...cair aku.. haha ^^ ~Bogo tto bogo sippeo..~ melt..


kredits Platypizz2@Utube

Ironic

• HATE - Hate is Lovely

• RUST - Rust is Beautiful

• PAIN - Pain is Hardworking

•  UNSTABLE - Unstable is colorful

p/s: I'm tired, sleepy yet have to do something that  is not worth to do such this post but its important to let out this feeling of depressed. I HATEEEEEEEEE!!!! Co-curriculum!!!!!!!!! HATEEE!!! Pay RM80 to go to camping yet have to take TEST!!!!! WHY!!!!?? They promised that we will get 100% right after the camp end. but TEST?? such lousy for 1 credits subject.

p/s me: 됐어! 괜찮아요. 넌 할수있어!!! 화이팅 키라야!

Jang Beom Jun (Busker Busker)

Introducing.. My 2012 CRUSH..

I admire him. We born on the same year. But, he kind of older than me as he is Korean*..haha ^^  He is a student (of Sangmyung University), a song writer and a singer. His voice. Gosh. I love it. Addicted to his voice. keke

His band is an indie band called Busker Busker. With other 2 members (his hoobae and English lecturer), they made a good music.

This is their song. Enjoy!

첫사랑-First Love (original song)

첫사랑-First Love (studio/live version)

Translation

When I first saw you, it was very different
I want to talk to you
Every time you smile, I find this out
Now every time I see you, my heart gets so big
Now all my time will be spent always laughing with you,
Longing for this night, wanting more out of a day
As I wait for you
What do I do? I’m still so bad at this
But my feelings have leaked and my heart grew bigger
And it keeps leaking
When you’re not here, it’s painful
I want to tell you how I feel
When I close my eyes, I picture you again
Now each time I breathe, you become so big
Now all my love will be spent always laughing with you,
Longing for this night, wanting more out of a day
As I wait for you
What do I do? I’m still so bad at this
But my feelings have leaked and my heart grew bigger
And it keeps leaking
Beautiful you, I tried to hold it in but
The night is getting dark and loneliness is coming
What do I do? I’m still so bad at this
But my feelings have leaked and my heart grew bigger
And it keeps leaking a little bit more
I tried to hold it in but
My heart has grown bigger and your heart has grown bigger


꽃송이가 (The Flowers)

Translation

I persuade you to play badminton with me
I call you out for a cup of coffee
I persuade you to talk a walk around town
But you never
say yes or no
The flowers, the flowers,
yes, yes, they have bloomed
The flowers, the flowers, that one flower,
yes, yes, it has bloomed
The countless people on the streets,
the people on that street
Yes, how special am I to you?
That’s the hard part, that’s the hard part,
that’s the hard part
I persuade you to grab some delicious food
I call you out to watch a movie
I persuade you to take a walk around the lake
But you never
say yes or no
The flowers, the flowers,
yes, yes, they have bloomed
The flowers, the flowers, that one flower,
yes, yes, it has bloomed
The countless people on the streets,
the people on that street
Yes, how special am I to you?
That’s the hard part, that’s the hard part,
that’s the hard part
I like it, I like it, harmonica solo
The flowers, the flowers,
yes, yes, they have bloomed
The flowers, the flowers, that one flower,
yes, yes, it has bloomed
The countless people on the streets,
the people on that street
Yes, how special am I to you?
That’s the hard part, that’s the hard part,
that’s the hard part

(*Korean counts age starts from the baby in their mother womb)
p/s: with one night I went to sleep with this BJ lullaby, the next morning.. I can simply sing along with it.
p/s 2 BJ: response to 'The Flowers' song.. Of course you're special to me!!uhuhu.. opss..GD oppa eotteokke?hehe.. nae. maja-yo. that's the hardest part. keke.

kredits to kiti8119 and  teresashkim

Did You Know?

• I always write a post but publish the post at certain time. Not all post. Depends on my mood.
  

• I can sleep early then wake up late. Sleep late and wake up early. Just whenever I want. haha. Kids will laugh at me if they read this. Stipud ftacs.

• I love my family, my friends, my cats, my dully, my bubby, my rorry, my... erk.. too many ma.. haiya! Just so much love to be given la..keke

• I love KPop and Kdrama till I can live with it without eating, sleeping, walking, any other with ...ing but not drinking la.. I need water at least to survive. keke
  

• I easily forgot over something if that something forgot me. haha. don't understand ma? then just don't.
  

• I cannot focus over something if my mind, my eye, my ear and my heart not gather. usually to stay focus I need a clear view of that something. by asking, disturbing, walking, moving, calling, texting and other ..ing. keke
  

• I easily forgive and forget. patient. but I got my limit.
  

• I hate and love cats, I hate and love someone, I hate and love myself.

• I am a dreamer. I still believe my prince charming will come to me and we live happily ever after.

• I trust on love at first sight. love after we know each other. but kind of hard to believe in love after married but don't know if this will change later.

• I love taking picture of something that I think 'lovely', 'beautiful', 'something precious' and thankfully the results of the picture comes out just as what I thought. like beautiful. as it is. but lately, I lost my passion. need to recharge it.

• I write Engrish not English. in hope of it gets better. need to practice talking. but I don't know....1husband with 4wives comes; how, when, why, what, who. keke
  

• I am standing in the ground but head up in the sky. how? someone help me please.
  

• I can read and write Bahasa Malaysia, English and Hangul. I understand Bahasa Malaysia, English and limit to Hangul and Mandarin. Currently learning Hangul(by podcast self-learning) and Arab(by reading 'Terjemahan per kata')

• I don't know why I write this stpuid fcats. but I think someday it will be useful to me and someone in future perhaps. keke.

• lastly, I can easily falling and rise up own my own. but I need time. while falling, I just need someone to hear me, keep me accompany and just watch over me. don't neglect me. I found that someone. but.. I just don't think much of it. just let it be the way it is. not too hopeful. cause I used to. I know me the best. but I don't know that someone know me as I know myself.

• and the laassstt is I need someone that know me better than I know myself yet loves me as I am. and it is my family. right? keke. and miss Choco I think. thank you miss Choco. I LAP U. keke. next time if I found 'someone else' I'll make this kind of post again. Ok. haha. when will it be. wonder.
  

p/s: need to climbing up of the well. It's dark in the well. cold. I hate it. but can't help with it. I know I can get out from this well.. ya......!!climbing2! up up here I'm coming!

Dedication

This song is for you..you..and yeah! YOU too.. hehe ^^


Actually this is for someone..but I... nevermind. So, for you and you.. just think that I shared another beautiful song.

Taru - Kasio

How was today?
Was it hard? Lean on me and rest
I really miss you
When you have time, please call me
Whenever


* The genuine words that comforted one another
The warm voice that seemed like would be forever
And the thing that remains is countless happiness
And a peaceful place of the heart that I believe in


Did something happen?
Tell me, I will listen
Always by my side, always next to me, I will help you overcome
Have strength


* repeat (x2)


It was once hidden and was once not able to breath
The warmth and trust and happiness in you
The joy, the delight, the love and hope
Even if it's starting now, have all of that with me
For always
And the thing that remains is countless happiness
And a peaceful place of the heart that I believe in

p/s: 보고싶어..빨이 돌아와..제발. aniyo. haengbok juseyo. na-neun gwaenchanayo.

It's Safe

It feel safe.
To stand next to a person.
With his right hand holding the hand holder.
And his other hand stay in his pocket.


Silently just stand next to me.
Watch over me.
Keep me accompany.
Ready to catch me whenever I'm fall.


Takes out his hand from his pocket,
and he can grab my hand easily.
Because I'll let him hold this hand.
Because I trust him.


That stranger.



10 April 2012
9:15 pm
WM

==================== update ====================


The night I write this-at above date, I found a beautiful song that describing the person. When I heard this song, it remind me of what I have wrote. It's a perfect match! So, here it is, the song.